Undone...

I am completely undone.  My heart is beating so hard I can literally hear it.  I've been communing with the Spirit through the Word and the edification of my amazing husband, who is also my favorite brother in Christ.  There are moments like these that literally make my heart want to burst.  As I got up from the couch to come blog I actually felt the heaviness of the Spirit on me.  Lord, thank You for Your undeniable presence. 

As we all know Easter is coming shortly and Wade and I have been doing the Resurrection Eggs with the girls.  I will admit, they are a bit gnarly for the age my kids are at, but I want them to know the truth!  I am overwhelmed by the truth that has proceeded from their lips.  Kaesyn the other night said, "Mommy, Jesus died on the cross for our sins.  We were in sin jail and when He died it set us free."  The next day Zoey calmed Kaesyn during a thunderstorm by reminding her that God tells the thunder where to go and we are safe because He is in control.  Oh, I wish I could stop time and relish the faith they wield.  Friends, our children are the future warriors that may have to actually battle for their faith.  What kind of weapons are we equipping them with?

In Sunday School we've been in John, and it has brought to the forefront of my mind my absolute desperation for a daily fellowship with the Word.  Do we truly understand what we have... some of us in multiple copies??  Do we know that Jesus is calling us from these pages??  Some of us are currently searching for answers to parenting problems, marital problems, or friendship problems and we hit the pillow every night distraught without answers... never having looked to the King of Kings!  He has given us SO MUCH in His Word and yet we ask Him to solve our problems without ever having looked at what He's already given us!!  I don't say this because I have something to lord over you... I'm saying this because I, like you, am on this journey through life and I NEED His help every step of the way.  There have been times lately that I don't recognize myself because He has changed so much of me... GLORY TO HIS NAME... NOT MINE! 

I could weep right now because of my thankfulness to Him in turning my life upside down.  I am UNDONE.  I am SO unworthy of His love but that's NOT what He says.  I am CONSTANTLY making mistakes, but His mercies are new EVERYDAY.  I am filled at times with uncontrollable emotions but He says, "Cast your cares on me."  Oh my, we serve a God that is truly worthy of our praise and adoration, not just on Sunday but in every moment of everyday.

My prayer for each of us is that RIGHT NOW His Spirit would call to us in the depths of our souls.  I pray we would hear His voice and run head long into the unknown of a life dependent on Him and His word.  My friends, NOTHING IS TOO DIFFICULT FOR HIM.  Wherever you are, whatever you're tied up in, or tied down by, He is the answer.  Seek Him, seek Him, seek Him, and you WILL find Him.