Summer...

Its been a long time.  A really long time.  Its been summer... and let's face it, when my kids are home everyday I have literally no time for anything extra.  I need to apologize for being absent.  Unfortunately, this morning I started realizing that I've been absent from more things than just my blog. 
Several things lately have been pulling at my eyelids but this morning my eyes snapped open, out of this summer coma I seem to have slipped into.  Wade and I have been amazed by a few major blessings recently realized.  And I hate that I'm amazed by that.  Don't get me wrong... I never want to be expectant to the point of feeling entitled.  That's not where I'm going with this.  However, I don't ever want to lose sight of the greatness of our God to the point that simple blessings blow me away.  Does that make sense?  This is all something I've been sorting through this afternoon.  Forgive me if I write a retraction tomorrow! :)
I was in place on the worship team this morning and as the piano played the intro to "Amazed" I found myself choking up.  The words scrolling across the screen caught me like a deer in the headlights.  "You danced over me, while I was unaware.  You sing over me, but I never hear the sound."  That has been me.  I have been unaware.  I have been deaf to this amazing song playing throughout my life the past few months.  I've been doing daily tasks completely void of the joy intended for God's people.  I'm not unhappy, but I'm not living the life that God intends for His children. 
I am blessed.  That's all.  If nothing else happens to me in my entire life... I am blessed.  I have three of the most beautiful children to ever walk on this planet.  I have a husband that loves me and supports me in every way.  I had breakfast, lunch, and dinner today.  I am breathing right now.  Ugh... and I am beyond blessed before all of that because I have salvation. 
So, here's where I am right now.  I have a lot on my plate for this next school year.  I have felt God prompting me to get out of my mommy box and start living in ministry to those around me.  I am putting myself out there in several new ventures and I'm excited about it all.
But, before I can even begin to minister to others I have to take a few deep breaths... I have to set my face to the wind and I have to allow myself to live on the edge.  Those of you that know me well at all, know that I enjoy a little risk.  I want to run into the unknown with my eyes wide open experiencing everything that God has for me in this time of life.  I want to allow myself to be voulnerable with people around me so that God can use my flaws and other's flaws to draw us ever closer to Himself.  I want His Spirit to make my heart flutter and beat so fast because I'm hearing Him call me to action.  I want to be available.  I want to be awake. 
Let's do this together people.  Let's set our alarm clocks and lets wake up.  Let's allow Him to transform what we do daily.  Let's see needs and meet them.  Let's be in His Word to the point that we can say we're "abiding" in Him.  Let's encourage one another to seek Him on levels we've only dreamed about before.  Let's be committed.  Let's be dangerous.  Let's do this thing.